I made it through the first session. It wasn't terrible, but it certainly was not comfortable. The session was long, and outside of my last crappy therapist, I've never experienced intake as an outpatient, so it seems odd to me to spending so much time at first. She seems to know what she is doing and she seems pretty nice, so I am open to going back, it just didn't feel quite right.
She asked a lot of questions and I emotionally vomitted as per the usual. It felt strange to not care so much about what I said this time around. She can't hurt me any worse I don't think. There is somewhat of a system meltdown currently, not sure Gabby is able to deal with any of it either...she had a long day. We fought earlier so I am pretty certain she just wants me to go away and she'll deal another time. Today, it just felt weird and that's all I can say about that.
My next session is scheduled for Tuesday afternoon. Later.