Broken

“The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (In the pain) there's the healing
In your name (In your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, (I'm still holdin')
I'm holdin' on, (I'm still holdin')
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I would, would be ok”

-Life House  “Broken”

I always asked her if I was ok, if everything was going to be ok. This song hit me hard today as it’s the first time I have heard it. I am not sure how I missed it but I wish it had been around during the termination process. This is only a small portion of the song but it was very meaningful and the timing was sick…I was driving through a part of town I associate with her.

Whatcha listening to?

I love to share music. So what am I currently playing the sh*t out of?

Traces - Album by Peter Bradley Adams

Wake Up - Arcade Fire

Maybe - Ingrid Michaelson

Kids - MGMT

The Heart of Life - John Mayer

Little Things - Pomplamoose

Breakeven - The Script

Feel Good Drag - Anberlin

What are you listening to?

If I could

Partial lyrics from a Celine Dion song...seemed to hit a soft spot tonight.

If I could
I'd protect you from the sadness in your eyes
Give you courage in a world of compromise
Yes, I would

If I could
I would teach you all the things I've never learned
And I'd help you cross the bridges that I've burned
Yes, I would

If I could
I would try to shield your innocence from time
But the part of life I gave you isn't mine
I've watched you grow
So I could let you go

If I could
I would help you make it through the hungry years
But I know that I can never cry your tears
But I would
If I could

The Wrong Girl

When I was younger, music was my voice and I would walk around with my walk-man and play the song that seemed right for every situation...as if I were living in a music video. I still do it to some extent. Tonights song would be The Wrong Girl by Missy Higgins after having a lovely conversation with my repulsive mother.

So the floodgates open but nothing comes out
I'm feeling no relief in my head
Just doubt
But my heart keeps telling me, "Hold your ground
You'll never learn a thing if you bail out now"

And I'm lonely again tonight
I can feel it like a knot in my side
They keep saying this is part of the ride but I'm not getting stronger

Yet hold me against the light and do you see any bullet inside
Wouldn't find one if you magnified because you've got the wrong girl

(Ooh)
(Ooh)

Had my fingers around the back of your chair
You'd never miss a thing but you missed me there
And I just kept thinking, "Am I prepared
To pull it out from under your trusting stare"

Now the house is quiet as a hollow head
And I'm walking round 
Bumping into things you said
This has not been as easy as I thought it would
I'd be cooling down the fire if I thought I could

And I'm lonely again tonight
I can feel it like a knot in my side
They keep saying this is part of the ride but I'm not getting stronger

Yet hold me against the light and do you see any bullet inside
Wouldn't find one if you magnified because you've got the wrong girl
Yeah
You've got the wrong girl

I see you there

So the floodgates open but nothing comes out

One more, lyrics

It's going to be alright - Sara Groves

It's going to be alright
It's going to be alright

I can tell by your eyes that you're not getting any sleep
And you try to rise above it, but feel you're sinking in too deep
Oh, oh I believe, I believe that

It's going to be alright
It's going to be alright

I believe you'll outlive this pain in you heart
And you'll gain such a strength from what is tearing you apart
Oh, oh I believe I believe that

It's going to be alright
It's going to be alright

When some time has past us, and the story if retold
It will mirror the strength and the courage in your soul
Oh, oh, I believe I believe,

I believe
I believe

I did not come here to offer you cliche's
I will not pretend to know of all your pain
Just when you cannot, then I will hold out faith, for you

It's going to be alright
It's going to be alright