Happy Thanksgiving Blogger

I hope everyone is having an awesome Thanksgiving. I am enjoying the vacation with my best friend celebrating with me. Since she is such an awesome photographer I have some pictures of our Thanksgiving Dinner to share with all of you.

Carrots

Our Cranberry Orange Cookies

Random Onion

We used a lot of these today.

Our Dinner, Turkey, Corn Stuff, Candied Sweet Potatoes, Biscuits, Carrots and Stuffing.

The Final Product

I am thankful for all of you here on blogger, what you are you thankful for?

easy to tell.

I overly identified with this PostSecret.

So you wanna take a picture, so I won't remember....

Have you ever looked at pictures and you cannot remember the setting, but you can remember exactly what you were thinking when you took it? I have that happen often and tonight I was looking through my iPhoto library and instead of remembering why I took the picture, I remember what I was thinking and I decided to share snapshots of thinking....

This is a picture of my cat sitting on my kitchen table, next to some flowers that were sent to me by a friend when my best friend died. Looks like a normal picture of a cat. I remember I was thinking about running away and leaving everything behind me. And how sad it would be for my cat.

This is a picture of my apartment bedroom from when I lived in downtown Baltimore. It was shortly after 9/11 and I had moved back home. I attempted suicide that day. I don't know why I took this picture that day, but I remember contemplating my life while I was doing it.

This was the view from my apartment. I remember that I was so lonely and desperate that evening as the sun set, and I was waiting for Therapist to call me back. I was thinking to myself that it was SUCH a gorgeous sunset and how I wished I could appreciate it.

I took this the day I was admitted to Sheppard Pratt ED unit. I wanted a picture of my cat to take with me. I was sitting on my couch suffering from terrible palpitations and wishing I was over my ED. It was the day I also met my current best friend for the first time.

I had just gotten home from therapy when I looked out the window and saw this. I was terrified because it reminded me of what I saw in NY and I was calling Therapist as I took this.

It was like 2AM and I was laying on my couch instant messaging my best friend (whom has since passed away) and asking her for reasons to live. We began talking about the holidays and she asked to see what my tree looked like. I remember thinking how ridiculous it was to take a picture of my tree when I felt like shit.

And this has nothing to do with the other stuff. This was a Christmas gift I made for Therapist in 2005. She still has it in her office.

My memory wall.

happiness

I think I was happy at one time.

Childhood PhotoShare

All this thinking about the past made me look back on some photos. So I scanned a few to share.

That's me at about 9 months old, my mother is holding me.

This is me on my Mom's birthday...I was 6 I think

My first and only birthday party when I was in foster care.

Stitches, no so thrilled. My Dad had hit me with a piece of metal.

Our family. My Dad, me brother and sister on Easter. My mom took the picture.

Dressed up in my ballet costume for a school play.

This is about 2 months before being admitted to Childrens.